"We do not rejoice in victories. We rejoice when a new kind of cotton is grown and when strawberries bloom in Israel." -- Golda Meir

history does not record what Anytus, Meletus, and Lycon thought or felt after they did what they pleased to Socrates.

I've had an unusually bad day, physically and emotionally.

I'm dizzy, I'm weak, I don't feel like eating, and I'm so tired. And I feel this enormous sense of dread and loss that pervades my exhausted, thought-ridden brain.

I don't want to go to bed. I don't want to have more horrible dreams like last nite. I want to pretend I don't know most of my friends. I want everything to go away.

*deep sigh*

If I just keep going, it'll pass, right? This hell always passes. But it burns indescribably first.

Tags: anxiety, depression, health, mental health
Current Location: upstairs
Current Mood: crying
Current Music: FG

Indulge a proud uncle. Niece, age 8, first communion, Old St Pat's Church Chicago 3 May 2008.

Tags: family
Current Location: Chicago

PSA:

Over on lj_election_en you can find the [self]nominations of those who would like to run for the LJ Advisory Board. 100 comments supporting a nomination are required in order to get on the 'ballot.'

A bunch of those self nominations seem to be running on popularity alone, and then a bunch of others seem to be treating it mostly as a joke.

I've not yet gone through all the nominations there, but so far I've found a fair number who a) seem like good candidates and b) are nowhere near 100 comments, which is why I'm going to try to spend some more time tomorrow finding candidates worth supporting.


More info about the nomination/election process here

The news post about the advisory board position.

Dear all,
I've found one reason why Hillary is staying the race. Electoral-Vote.com maintains the results of state-by-state polls.

When Obama goes against McCain, Obama gets 237 electoral votes, and McCain gets 290 votes.

When Clinton goes against McCain, Clinton gets 280 electoral votes, and McCain gets 241 votes.

This is just one collection of polls; other collections may have different results.

Take care, all.

UPDATE: ytterbius points out that this data has been posted in politicsforum, as well as the rebuttal: polls this far from the election have little relation to how people will vote in November.

Writing mathematical proofs is a difficult, interesting art, and I'd love to look at the kinds of miswrites, fixes, rewrites people make.

The camera-ready copy is due in about 19 hours.

Here's the most important page:


Any suggestions?

Is it easy to make LaTeX render squares instead of "QED"?

1. finished setting up BlogCFC on my server; now to set up different blogs for different sites including libidinouswino.org

2. made progress with libidinouswino.org (nexus of smut and grammar) (and cash cow) (well, cash rabbit) (cash cicada?)

3. fixed long and complex update form for client

4. unsuccessfully tried to talk her into connecting that form directly to the database

5. wrote long, polite letter to another client explaining difficulties of editing a complex navigation menu in a WYSIWYG editor

6. patched a couple of holes in my CMS

7. read further on DKIM and DomainKeys and decided to not implement them on my server since they are resource intensive and my server does not have a ton of resources to spare

8. sent timeline and budget to another, new client

9. fixed feedback problem with some colleagues on experts-exchange.com; was called a gentleman

10. grocery shopping

11. made big batch of shrimp and cous cous that will last for three dinners

12. puttered

13. napped

14. read LJ

15. letter to EF written and posted

16. revised poem about dancing policemen in Granada

17. now the computer is going to beat me in chess, a little more at-risk each time

Tags: client management, project management, web development, work day
Current Location: Chicago
Current Mood: accomplished

Busy day at work today -- we put in three culverts, including a big 3' culvert up at the end of the lake where the water always runs over the road. We sincerely hope that the 3' culvert will prevent most of the road-overtopping events in that region.

( In other news... )

The markings look like a gull, the wings don't and it seems to fly more like raptor than a gull.

The beak is what? eagle?



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I'm afraid all I had was my 28-200, so the pictures aren't great quality:
http://flickr.com/photos/ellarsee/sets/72157605045357417/

Edit: I've been told that it's a kite. I've seen them hovering over the parking lot across the street:

http://www.moremesa.org/mesa_kite_hun.html

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